About not giving up. [a letter from far away]

Hi.

We didn’t get the chance to say goodbye. I know. I tried my best, even harder than you think, but I couldn’t! I thought about showing up at your place, not caring about what your best friend would say when he found out about us. But, it was better like this. No ‘goodbyes’, no hugs, no kisses or tears. Just your e-mail and my call. Enough? Probably not. But, things happen for a reason. Right? Not always good ones, not always the way we want. That’s life. We have to deal with it.

But, I still can’t deal with the fact that we’re not together anymore for this stupid reason! I’m sure that he won’t mind if you tell him the truth! Tell him we couldn’t help it and it was stronger than us! Because, that’s the truth! When two people feel attracted and are able to look deep into their eyes with no fear, they can’t help getting involved!

What am I gonna do when I listen to our favorite songs? Or drink wine? Or even watch those movies you told me to? What am I gonna do when I wake up in the morning and you are my first thought? Or when you’re my last? I know it is too soon to feel and think about all those things, but you are so amazing, cute, sweet… and you don’t feel ashamed about the pathetic things you do, like and tell. You’re so true, so honest. You’re so ME!

Soon, we’ll meet again. There’s still so many things I want to say to you. So many questions to ask. Forgive me if I behave inappropriately. It’s only because I didn’t feel those butterflies anymore and you brought it back to me! Goosebumps! Happy thoughts! And hope. I believe: THERE IS ALWAYS HOPE!

Love, me.